Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Gringuisimo Play

After six years of hibernation, I made my grand return to the stage on Monday. I played the grumpy old water bottle in the Peace Corps drama La vida de la basura "The Life of Garbage." It is a short, educational drama focusing on the differences between organic/inorganic garbage and the importance of recycling. The play features different pieces of garbage discussing how they feel about being thrown away by humans. My character is the antagonist. Turned bitter over 80 years of sitting by the side of the road with nothing to do, he has pledged to take vengeance on humanity by spreading illnesses like dengue, diarrhea, and amoebas. Here is the first scene of La vida de la basura:



In the second act, the Peace Corps Volunteer separates all of the trash and takes the recyclable pieces to the recycling center. The grumpy old piece of plastic is the first to go through the recycling center and he emerges as a shiny new plastic cup....and scene. The play ends and hopefully the kids learned a little about trash management. Unfortunately we don't have the second act on video, but it was a hit with the students.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Culture of Yucuaiquin Video

I just found this great video from the Cultural Center in my community. The video provides a basic profile of my community and features the Director of the Cultural Center discussing the local traditions in Yucuaiquin. It is in Spanish so get out your Spanish-English dictionaries and enjoy.


Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Crimson tide

Tomorrow, March 2nd, will officially mark my 5 months left in Peace Corps. I have been a terrible blogger up to this point but I'm determined to pick up the pace for these last few months. My goal is to write something, however short it may be, at least twice a month, so here I go...

Last Saturday I went to the Cultural Center's rehearsal for the youth theater group. I watched four teenagers practice Marea roja by Sacha Barrera Oro. The play is...interesting. The drama is a series of non-linear monologues from a dysfunctional family; brother and sis are lovers, dad is abusive, and mom is distant. The monologues are filled with contrived, overly figurative language, such as this gem spoken by the Dad:

"It's true my dear...Of course birds don't fly just to migrate from one season to the next. They do it to change their skin in the air and of course...to lose weight at the same time. I already told you once how vipers do the same in the water."

It's not what I would have chosen to perform, but the youth were dedicated to it and I loved every minute of the rehearsal. Watching the kids give themselves to their characters and become someone new reaffirmed my love for theater. I'm excited to go again next week.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

RATS!!!

Rats! You eat my oatmeal. You destroy my bags of flour. You tear open my sesame seeds. You chew the lid off my sesame oil. You wake me up in the night with your squeaking midnight machinations. You even rip a hole in the vegetable oil, starting a slick flood over my counter; my own natural disaster right here at home. CNN breaking news: Crisis on My Kitchen Counter, Day 42! Who needs BP when you have RATS? Yes, rats, you have done all of this damage, and I have not retaliated. But today you go too far. Today you find the breaking point of a Peace Corps Volunteer. Today, you ate my Nalgene bottle.

Ladies and Gentlemen, let me inform you that there is one thing you never, and I mean NEVER do; that is get between a Peace Corps Volunteer and his or her Nalgene. Typically, we volunteers are the peaceful type, the tree huggers, the free lovers, the save-the-children type, BUT if you try to mess with a volunteer’s Nalgene you will have an unholy hell storm rained down on your head. Let me help explain. You see, the Nalgene bottle is a volunteer’s constant companion, our ever trusty source of purified water, our savior from diarrhea and dehydration. Nalgenes also make us who we are. Our Nalgenes scream to the world, “We are independent, outdoorsy, adventurers! No frontier is too final, no place too remote!” Let me put it this way, if this were the SAT you may encounter a question like this, “ is to Peace Corps Volunteer as the Holy Bible is to Christian missionary.” The answer would be Nalgene.

So rats, today when you decided to target my Nalgene bottle you did not know what you were starting -- War! I can only quote the immortal words of Scar as I bellow with clenched fists of rage, “Be Prepared!” There will be retribution…

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Busy Again

June, what a month. I have really been through it all this month - from heart ache to stomach ache and back again. I feel like I have been through 6 months worth of emotions in the past 20 days. Time is funny like that, I guess. One emotion can stretch a minute out for an hour, and another can make an hour pass in a second. One of my most valued relationships in the States is undergoing a transformation now, and I am amazed at how easily life in the US affects me here; a single phone call from home and my life turns upside down. I spend a lot of time dwelling on the changes in my relationship, wrestling with my doubts, but I also have doubled my efforts at work. I am immersed in my job to distract myself from the problems in my emotional life (how American of me).

Even though it may be an escape, the work feels good. I have started new projects and feel optimistic about the next year. In addition to my English program with 1st to 6th grade, I began working with the High School students once a week. I started the second class in my community English series. I am finally having those important conversations with my informal youth group, discussing relationships and drug and alcohol abuse. I have the school principal's permission to start a mural on the school wall. I also want to help the cultural center create a tech classroom to help teach youth computation skills. Beyond my community, I am excited to work on the Peace Corps gender committee, GAD. I was recently elected to serve as President of the group and I look forward to a year of strengthening Peace Corps volunteer's awareness of gender issues in El Salvador.

Although June has brought me a lot of pain, it also brings a lot of opportunities. I finally feel like I can see a place for myself in this community. I see the work I can do, and I look forward to the challenges it will pose. I am almost one year into my service and I finally have an idea of what I can offer to my community.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Midnight meditations

The cement walls of my house, the silent witnesses of my constant drama, are a light aqua-marine. They are drab and inconstant, chipped in some places, stained with mold in others, and when it rains the lower half absorbs water. The water cuts the walls in half, etching a choppy line horizontally across the walls. It encircles me. I am on an ocean, staring at my walls; the lower half a deeper aqua cut off from the lighter upper half by a rolling line of water-stain waves. Every night I float alone in the ocean of my house. No direction, no land in sight, I float in the menacing uncertainty of my ocean. Isolated in the vast expanse of the sea, I run through my nightly routines to bail the water out of my fragile raft. Some nights I just stare at the stars and try not to notice the water slowly seeping in. Looking up, I think, “A person could get lost in all that beauty.” Only one problem, if you’re not careful you can drown in it too.

Some nights I want to throw myself into the water and get lost. Every day I watch pods of dolphins frolic in the waves, pausing briefly to play with me on my raft as they make their way through the sea. I smile with them and enjoy the moment, but at night I wish I could join them. I yearn to disappear into the ocean with a silent splash and roam the waves with the dolphins.

But I can’t.

I look down at what holds me back; my raft, a few mismatched boards salvaged from an old boat slung together with frayed rope. My raft carries me and my few possessions: an old hat, a water-logged book, a movie stub from a first date. Sadly my raft is only a memory of what it was. I have had to sacrifice much to the ocean, cutting off pieces of my raft to keep it afloat. I’ve watched pieces sink silently into the sea, disappear below the murky water. My raft is a hodgepodge flotilla, and yet it is valuable. This weathered hat, this soggy book, and this faded movie ticket are all I have to remind me of land. At night I look at these objects and try to connect myself to the land, to keep the memory alive in my heart. I stare at my possessions and imagine I am back on the secure ground of home, and yet I know I am floating miles away from anything I have ever known. Sometimes I resent these objects. They hold me back from diving into the sea, and yet I could never hate my raft because it is all I have to remind who I am.

The sea can be rough, sometimes threatening to capsize my small ship, and yet…there are moments. Moments of complete serenity, when I cast my fishing line into the ocean; secure on my raft, I feel the subtle tug of a fish nibbling at what I offer and I think,

“I will be alright.”

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Maricón

Washing my hands in a crowded bathroom, a man walks up to the sink beside me. His friend is on the other side of me. The man glances at his friend:

Puta, hay bastantes gringos maricones en el país, ¿verdad?

Which translates to: Damn, there are a lot of Gringo fags in the country

My blood freezes, then boils. I want to say something, scream something, lash out, but I decide to pretend I do not understand Spanish. Somehow I find dignity in my feigned ignorance. I calmly rinse the soap from my hands, and leave the restroom.

Now let me back track a little bit. I have been in San Salvador, the capitol city, for about a week. I came in on Monday to meet with the doctors about my asthma, and they still have not authorized me to leave. Apparently I only use 80 percent of my lung capacity when I breathe. I feel fine, probably because I have lived with asthma my whole life, but the doctors want to see if they can improve my lungs. So, here I am with two days worth of clothes trying to make my volunteer budget last over an unexpected week in the capitol. Which leads me to Wednesday, the day of the gringo fag incident.

On Wednesday I decided to go see a theatre production in a Central American Theatre Festival. I was super excited to see some performance art. It has been about eight months since I have seen any form of theatre, dance, or musical performance, and I was praising my luck for being in San Salvador at the same time as a Theatre Festival. The theatre is inside of the Metro Centro mall, a shopping center catering mostly to middle class Salvadorans. There I was, washing my hands in the Metro Centro food court bathroom, when it happened.

It was the first time anyone had ever directed hate speech at me, and it hit me like a slap to the face. The word in itself did not bother me so much as the situation. Maricón is such a common word to hear. Just yesterday, I was waiting at a busy bus stop, idly watching a family of street vendors. They had an assortment of pirated movies sprawled out on the hot sidewalk. A little boy in the family was playing among the movies with his sister and somehow got glitter on his face. His mother notices and scolds, Mira como andas bien maricoñado con brillo en la cara. Brillo no es para niños varones. (Look how you are all fagged-out with glitter on your face. Glitter is not for little boys.) I frown. The mother notices me and sends a knowing smile, thinking I frown at the atrocity of a little boy with glitter on his face. A vast chasm of difference stretches between my dismay at witnessing the creation of gender roles in a machisto culture and the mother´s smile. The point is maricón is a word I am more or less accustomed to now. I am not accustomed to having it directed at me, nor to hearing it in the capitol.

I come to San Salvador to relax, to be myself, let down the act I put on in my community, to wear V-necks if I feel like it. I always imagined San Salvador as a safe zone for my identity, a place where I can be the Eric I was in the States - go out dancing, watch theatre, see movies in English, openly consume alcohol, sit in cafes with my legs crossed. Wednesday I had a major reality check. Even though San Salvador is significantly more cosmopolitan and diverse than my rural home, it is still in El Salvador and subject to all of the biases and prejudices that exist in the culture. It was a very sobering experience.